ctrl + g… buzzz… ding!
we buzz our ym buddies when they seem to reply a little longer… we buzz so we’d know whether they got disconnected , couldn’t or wouldn’t reply at all…

apart from having a poker face, i also have this poker ear(?)
hahaha i made that term up.

poker ear – seems to not hear, but really does hear

i have the tendency to look like not listening what someone tells me.  my friends think that i don’t listen because my  face reads a talk-to-george sign, or i look like im in trance, with a blank expression.  usually, they remind me by telling me ‘wa ka naminaw noh?‘ and i answer them with whatever they were asking me.

in those accusations, i don’t plead guilty.  when those moments come up, i listen, really.  it just happens that my mind is also processing another thing and tells my face to look dumb. hahaha.

im sure they would disagree to that excuse.  fine! sometimes, i don’t listen.  i let it pass.  i tend to filter the signals that my ear send to my brain.  if it’s not worthy, or it would something that could make me angry or hurt, my brain doesn’t process it.  wait.. i see the connection now… my poker face and my poker ear are related…
hahaha..

because of this talent, nalain si kate nako… i just read her blog entry about it.

so that was why she asked me about unrequited love… tsk tsk tsk…
i feel awful reading her entry.  i didn’t mean to ignore her.  its either i didn’t hear her say something, or my mind was super bothered with depressing and anxious thoughts.

it happened friday, and that was a day that made my mind twist.  maybe when kate was saying something, my mind was already in the middle of calculating the possibilities of me  becoming alone in a group coming july.

and with my worries, i hurt someone.  and it feels bad…

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa

sori kate!!! next time, if you want to talk, do shake me… i might get nervous breakdown if you won’t…. hahahhaha

i owe you